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frogmajick) wrote2022-02-03 07:00 pm
frogmajick) wrote2022-02-03 07:00 pm
fake titties
Yesterday I got a prescription for my camisole and soft inserts. I still need the compression.
When I tell you this thing looks awful. This thing looks awful. The "puffs" are just circles of batting inside a nylon bag, and they go into this formed bralet inside a tight tank top cami. The puffs look ridiculous, they're too small and look exactly like you'd imagine 2 pillows inside a man's shirt would look. But if I don't wear them, the bralet is formed enough that the panel wads up and gets all wrinkeld and looks awful. I hate it and I don't want to wear it. I'm going to buy something on amadong.
I found out in March I'll get another prescription for prosthetic breasts and bra. In fact, insurance covers 2 bras every 6 months and a new set of prostheses every 2 years.
I get it that I am an absolute freak not feeling like I'm missing part of myself, not grieving this loss of fat, but I do not feel negatively impacted. I feel fucking sexy. I love how it feels, I'm meh on how it looks naked, but I love how it looks in clothes. I feel good. I feel strong.
And part of me is fucking livid at this social norm that says for some reason even titless I need to wear a fucking bra. From now on when I teach and I start a class with the 'what is a woman' question, the only right answer will be 'whatever person is wearing the most uncomfortable underwear". I mean it's just bullshit.
I am literally only going to get this initial pair and a bra to wear them in because I have 1 dress that would look better with tit-shape. Well, I might get my prescribed bras and donate them. If insurance is paying for them, and I'm paying for insurance, I might as well, right
When I tell you this thing looks awful. This thing looks awful. The "puffs" are just circles of batting inside a nylon bag, and they go into this formed bralet inside a tight tank top cami. The puffs look ridiculous, they're too small and look exactly like you'd imagine 2 pillows inside a man's shirt would look. But if I don't wear them, the bralet is formed enough that the panel wads up and gets all wrinkeld and looks awful. I hate it and I don't want to wear it. I'm going to buy something on amadong.
I found out in March I'll get another prescription for prosthetic breasts and bra. In fact, insurance covers 2 bras every 6 months and a new set of prostheses every 2 years.
I get it that I am an absolute freak not feeling like I'm missing part of myself, not grieving this loss of fat, but I do not feel negatively impacted. I feel fucking sexy. I love how it feels, I'm meh on how it looks naked, but I love how it looks in clothes. I feel good. I feel strong.
And part of me is fucking livid at this social norm that says for some reason even titless I need to wear a fucking bra. From now on when I teach and I start a class with the 'what is a woman' question, the only right answer will be 'whatever person is wearing the most uncomfortable underwear". I mean it's just bullshit.
I am literally only going to get this initial pair and a bra to wear them in because I have 1 dress that would look better with tit-shape. Well, I might get my prescribed bras and donate them. If insurance is paying for them, and I'm paying for insurance, I might as well, right